As low as it gets

I sit alone here,

Deep in thought,

Vastly falling into a pool of sadness,

My emotions tattered and distraught,




A pool of sadness surrounds me,

Dragging me further into its pit,

Making my emotional and mental senses,

Uncooperative, Sedate, Unfit,




Not working properly,

Not helping me in any way,

To fix the problems and torments,

That I carry with me every day,




Growing stronger and stronger,

The lonelier I feel,

The more deserted, and less sociable I become,

Sinks in and makes it all real,




I hate feeling this way,

But it becomes obvious to me,

That I am in no fit state,

To be who I want to be,




I want to be strong and confident,

Feel like I'm worth more,

Feel like I can see the opportunity,

That lies behind every door,




I want to feel like I fit in,

Instead of wishing my life away,

I want to be the strength to be able to,

Want to wake up every day,




Not fall into a bottomless sleep,

And never choose to wake,

Not sink further and further into wishing,

That my existence was fake,




Fake and imaginary,

As it feels like I may well be,

I'm through with emotions and feeling this way,

So blind I can no longer see,




The sense behind all of this,

I want the resolve to tough it out,

The determination and persistence,

To see what my life is about.

Only you can help yourself

He stares through the window,

Wondering what went wrong,

Sitting staring, with blank expressions,

Just pondering as the outside world rushes along,




His face is pale and full of sorrow,

Showing signs of self pity, and unrest,

His head filled with unanswerable questions,

Making him get more and more stressed,




If only there were answers,

Something to put his mind at ease,

Something that would help his curiosity,

A small but relieving breeze,




Something that will pick him up,

Make him stand up strong and tall,

Make him face whatever obstructs him,

Anything at all,




If only there was someone to guide him,

Make him see the light,

Make him see that no matter how bad things get,

Everything's going to be all right,




Its easier to think of this as nonsense,

I guess its sounds too good to be true,

But there is only one person who can pull you out of this black hole,

Who can save your life, And that person is you,




You are the only one who can,

Clear the grey rain filled clouds,

Erase thoughts of bad memories,

Can remember how to feel proud,




Of the person that you are,

The qualities that you were given,

The self motivation and perseverance,

The way you were always driven,




To make something of your future,

To make your dreams come true,

To direct yourself out of the darkness,

And see the light shine through

Jessie

I love the way you cuddle me,

You rub your head against mine,

I love the way you comfort me,

Although you don't all of the time,




I love the way that you drive me crazy,

The mischievous things you do,

The way you are full of life,

Jessie I love you,




I love the markings on your face,

I love the curiousness in your eyes,

The way you sit at my window,

And look into the skies,




The way you can be so full of cheek,

When you drink the water from my glass,

The way you are just so adorably sweet,

Yet so full of sass,




You are so funny in a car,

You watch the world go by,

sometimes you sit and watch intently,

Other times you try,




To wander around and investigate,

Curious as to what you may find,

Climbing all over Paul,

And driving him out of his mind,




I don't regret getting you,

I don't regret one day,

Even though you try my patience a lot,

I wouldn't have you any other way.

Wants and Needs

I have often sat here and thought,
About the life I lead,
About the things that I want most,
What I most need,

I found that I asked more questions,
That it just brought on more thought,
Never answering these questions,
Never getting to sort,

Out these feelings deep inside,
Taking control of me,
Never letting me find the answer,
Never letting me be free,

The things I need have to wait,
And remain wants instead,
Because I keep thinking about and confusing them,
And letting them spin round my head,

It's hard to know how to solve this,
As it's never just black and white,
It's all of the colours in-between,
It's always, always a big fight,

A fight between heart and mind,
Between knowing what is and is not true,
No matter how hard we search to find the answer,
The answer only lays inside of you!